A little story about me-
I started this journey of healing and spirituality over ten years ago at age 26. It started because I really felt like I didn’t belong anywhere or with anyone. Every relationship I had failed and I started to notice a pattern. Back than all we had was Oprah to turn to and she had recommended the book “A New Earth” by Eckart Tolle in her book club. So this was the first book I read that shifted my thinking and helped me to understand that we can actually change our life and that there is an actual reason why everything is happening and I WAS RESPONSIBLE? Whoa! That was age 26, after that I read every spiritual self help personal development book I could get my hands on. At age 29 I got the wake up call I needed and decided to devote myself 100% to my healing. I honestly did not know what I needed to heal but I knew I had issues. A series of events happened that forced me to make a change. Either I was going to make this change or my life would never get any better and it was pretty bad at that time. It felt like everywhere I went bad stuff happened to me. Like I just couldn’t get a break in life. Like there was a raincloud following over me everywhere I went. I believed I would always struggle. I believed life was hard. And I had a fear of shining. At age 29 very close to my 30th birthday life came crashing down all at once and I was forced to make a choice. I lost my job, my fiancé and my apartment all in one month. I understood that it was all happening for a reason but it was all just too much. I had a small amount of money in savings and I decided to follow my intuition which was telling me to leave everything and move to Hawaii. Hawaii was a place I had never even been but I had seen the pictures and always imagined myself there and I knew that it was just the place to heal me. So without a plan and without knowing anyone there I packed up my 8 year old son and two luggages and we embarked on our one way journey to Hawaii.
Hawaii healed me and I learned many tools and met so many magical amazing souls there. The first person I met there was a spiritual man named Noble and when we met I was a complete wreck. He shared with me this poem and told me to speak its words everyday and so I did, and that was when the magic started.
“I am now reborn.
Yesterday no longer exists.
At this moment, I am reborn.
I am already a new person, and this is a new world.
I have forgiven all people.
No hatred, anger, or torment
shall enter my mind.
I will love all people.
And I will devote myself to
working for the sake of all.”
Masaharu Taniguchi Prayer, 1931
When I first got to Hawaii I started reading this book I found in a thrift store in California. It was called the autobiography of a yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda. Like I mentioned, I didn’t know what exactly I needed to heal but I knew it was something. Yoganandas story was so inspiring of his search for God his entire life and how he found inner peace through a meditation called kria yoga. As I was reading this book and saying this prayer really good things started to happen to me and everyday I started to feel better. I began meditating after becoming so inspired by this book so I decided to meditate 4 hours a day like the Dalai llama did from 4am to 8am and see what would happen. Yoganandya started speaking to me and guiding me and through his teachings I became strong.
Practice meditation, you’ll find that you are carrying within your heart a portable paradise
After meditating and reading more I came across a spiritual teacher named Ester Hicks who is known for channeling a group of spirit beings she calls Abraham, it was through Louise Hay that I discovered her. I felt so drawn to this information that I ordered the entire CD box collection and would listen to it in my car while watching the Ocean. I know its hard to imagine living in Hawaii and sometimes feeling like I was living in hell but thats how it felt for me sometimes because I was so disturbed inside. Sometimes I would sit by the beach crying and these CDs and words of Abraham not only brought me up but also changed my vibration which would later change my entire life.
In order for things to change you have to see them as you want them to be rather than continuing observing them as they are.
One of the best books I ever read is the seat of the soul by Gary Zukav. His writings are really profound and really helped me understand love.
“Humbleness, forgiveness, clarity and love are the dynamics of freedom. They are the foundations of authentic power.”
“An authentically powered person lives in love. Love is the energy of the soul. Love is what heals the personality. There is nothing that cannot be healed by love. There is nothing but love.”
Both of Eckart Tolles books A New Earth and The Power Of Now are re read and re read very often for me
When people get taken over by the ego to such an extent, there is nothing else in their mind except the ego. They can no longer feel or sense their humanity – what they share with other human beings, or even with other life forms on the planet. They are so identified with concepts in their minds that other human beings become concepts as well. Eckhart Tolle
Power over others is weakness disguised as strength. Eckhart Tolle
And last but not least I was recently introduced to this letter that Einstein wrote to his daughter and if you havn’t read it yet, its pretty profound. Even Einstein arguably the smartest man that ever lived, figured out that Love was the most powerful force in the universe. Its not only his realization of the power in the force of love but his own polaritys, his own shadows, his human side where he had guilt and abandoned his only daughter. No human, even the smartest human alive has this thing called life figure out. We all struggle but the sooner we can realize our part, to give love, the sooner we can contribute to bringing the balance back to planet earth.
“When I proposed the theory of relativity, very few understood me, and what I will reveal now to transmit to mankind will also collide with the misunderstanding and prejudice in the world.
I ask you to guard the letters as long as necessary, years, decades, until society is advanced enough to accept what I will explain below.
There is an extremely powerful force that, so far, science has not found a formal explanation to. It is a force that includes and governs all others, and is even behind any phenomenon operating in the universe and has not yet been identified by us. This universal force is LOVE.
When scientists looked for a unified theory of the universe they forgot the most powerful unseen force. Love is Light, that enlightens those who give and receive it. Love is gravity, because it makes some people feel attracted to others. Love is power, because it multiplies the best we have, and allows humanity not to be extinguished in their blind selfishness. Love unfolds and reveals. For love we live and die. Love is God and God is Love.
This force explains everything and gives meaning to life. This is the variable that we have ignored for too long, maybe because we are afraid of love because it is the only energy in the universe that man has not learned to drive at will.
To give visibility to love, I made a simple substitution in my most famous equation. If instead of E = mc2, we accept that the energy to heal the world can be obtained through love multiplied by the speed of light squared, we arrive at the conclusion that love is the most powerful force there is, because it has no limits.
After the failure of humanity in the use and control of the other forces of the universe that have turned against us, it is urgent that we nourish ourselves with another kind of energy…
If we want our species to survive, if we are to find meaning in life, if we want to save the world and every sentient being that inhabits it, love is the one and only answer.
Perhaps we are not yet ready to make a bomb of love, a device powerful enough to entirely destroy the hate, selfishness and greed that devastate the planet.
However, each individual carries within them a small but powerful generator of love whose energy is waiting to be released.
When we learn to give and receive this universal energy, dear Lieserl, we will have affirmed that love conquers all, is able to transcend everything and anything, because love is the quintessence of life.
I deeply regret not having been able to express what is in my heart, which has quietly beaten for you all my life. Maybe it’s too late to apologize, but as time is relative, I need to tell you that I love you and thanks to you I have reached the ultimate answer! “.